2012 AND Paranoid Psychosis

Holy Moly! How quickly things can change! My precious son's paranoia has now turned on me and I can no longer communicate with him. I know he is not devistatingly alone however because he has 2 friends that support him now - one is a drug dealer that set him up with the DEA in a sting (could be true or not), but he considers her his dear friend (!) When I tried to question him about it all, he flew into a rage and told me that we couldn't talk about it because she might go to jail - even though we were in my car at a public park with no cars in sight and no one could possibly hear us.
Then he attacked me for the pain meds I take for my Fibro and arithritis in shoulders, back and said that I was always "high" and HAD to take them every time I saw him to treat anxiety. Now, neither of these is true but how do I convince him of that? How do I convince him that I am the one who has stayed by him every minute for the entire 10 years he's been ill and loved him unconditionally?
I HAVE failed him by not making him get better help several years ago. Help!

So - 2012 - I have learned SOOOO much! First, I refer you to the Camelot Project and David Wilcock. You can watch David's talks on Youtube. It is impossible to ignore this man's brilliance no matter if you give a s... what he's saying or not! And I believe him. basically he gives a complete scientific explaination of what is going to happen so that even I can get the gist of it but the point is that our DNA is going to change to the next level of evolution SUDDENLY and we will be 400 times more open to the spiritual side of the people, mother earth and the universe. We will live in love and harmony and we will be able to heal disease and (I wish I could put this in tiny letters) - fly.

Now I understand how "out there" this sounds from an old lady like me - and I am quite boring I assure you - but listen to this. When I first got into our souls and after life and stuff, I got a book by a Chinese man who wrote a book about our souls and I kept reading it because he has such a beautiful mind. But now I picked it up again and started from the beginning and even though I was alone at the time I shouted out loud that it was EXACTLY WHAT DAVID WILCOCK was saying about 2012!!!!! The books are the Soul Power Series by Dr. Zhi Gang Sha. The specific book I am reading is "Soul Wisdom". He is a precious treasure and his book is full of precious treasures for you.
PLEASE listen to David's lectures on Youtube Camelot Project (and check out all the scarey ufo and illuminati folks there too)

My Angels Astonish Me

As far as I know I have an angel and a male-type spirit guide and they have been absolutely amazing me this past week and tonight they just crack me up!
I have been asking them for very specific helps lately - about one each night and their answers are so obvious that even my skeptical husband has to agree that they have been answering.
The "coincidences" are so good!
Anyway, yesterday for my rest time I listened to a new meditation tape that my daughter bought me. It was the first time I have listened to the colors of the chakras in meditation.
So, I get e-mails all the time from Stumbleupon and most of the time I have to ignore them because I simply don't have time. It's been weeks since I opened one but tonight I did, just for fun. It was an art site BUT the second site was on pineal meditation and I clicked on a guy in a very colorful shirt who just started talking about the colors of the pineal chakra. DO do dum dum dummmmm
I LOVE IT! I am going to heal myself of this damn sickness. I haven't finished the medical meditation book yet but I am already convinced it will work. I just need to feel well enough to get through it!
My paranoid psychotic son is stealing all my energy right now and I am not feel at all patient about it. I need to summon up some loving-kindness along with tough love to get him out of his cave garage and move home and get well. I don't think even one person has looked at my blogs so I can't ask for prayers - I guess I'll ask my angels!